Showing posts with label Lost. Show all posts
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Saturday, May 13, 2023

A Mother's Sacrifice - Story That Grew Up With Me...


 

I love listening to stories. No academic degree or professional course can teach you as much as a good story if you ask me. At this phase of life, when I look toward my long-gone past, I remember so many good stories told to me at various stages, and at various unimaginable places. I remember so many of them by heart. But I hardly remember any lecture with that amount of lucidity I attended in college.

Being an imaginative kid, who was considered lost by many around me, I always valued stories. It was and still is a desirable dish for my imaginative mind. Do you know that so many people are researching time travel and the presence of different dimensions? Little do they know that the only way to travel in time and explore different dimensions is possible by telling and listening to good stories.

Do you want to try it?

So sit back and relax. And take a bellyful of breath.

Let me take you to my classroom. In a shady corner on the top floor, just next to the staircase, there's my classroom. It's the last period of the day. It was much hotter than the other days of July month. The least we could do is to relax for a bit after a tiring day.

It was a counseling period. I really looked forward to that period as one can gossip with his or her friends and can stay away from textbooks and notes for a while. It took me years to understand that it was not the vacant time of the day but the stories Counselor Ma'am (may God bless her divine soul) used to tell us that made me look forward to that class.

She entered our classroom and we all stood up to sing our lullaby style Good Afternoon Ma'am. She smiled and told us to settle down. One could tell her with her facial expressions that whether she is in the mood to tell a story or she wants us to carry on with whatever we feel like, of course by maintaining the decorum of the class. That day her expressions displayed the former option. She was clenching her kerchief in her left hand. She stood comfortably against her desk and started the story -

Once there was a saint who used to travel from one place to another, singing devotional songs, and answering innocent questions asked by people around him. He was known for throwing light on unanswered questions which appear in his disciples' minds. 

On the banks of the Godavari River, there was a village. The saint thought of staying in that village under a gigantic banyan tree, before continuing his journey to other places. 

The villagers were delighted and honored by the presence of the saint. They brought fruits, milk, clean water, and various fragrances for him. They sat all around him, listening to devotional songs, praising the greatness of the Almighty. 

After the kirtan session, people asked for solutions to their domestic as well as spiritual problems. When everyone was contented with his simple solutions, everyone stood up to leave. But then one villager raised a question. 

'Oh wise one, I'm a hardworking man. I travel to distant lands to earn money so that I can give all the amenities to my children. I compromise my personal pleasures so that my children can lead a good life. But Your Holiness, if you pick up any religious text, they all sing praises of the divinity and the compromises of the Mother. Can you please put some light on why Mother is expressed as more compromising to the Father in all those texts?

The saint smiled and calmly appreciate the importance of the question raised. He told the villager to come back again the next morning after taking a bath. Then he will answer his question.

When the villager arrived the next morning, the saint was sitting calmly under the tree. 

He told the villager not to sit and raise his arms where he was standing. Then he tied a big rock through a jute rope around the villager's belly. He was not at all expecting something like this. He doubted the wisdom of the saint and thought that he wants to play some kind of prank with him. 

He only understood the seriousness of the business once the saint recited some Vedic chants.

The saint told the villager to go back to his home and come back tomorrow. "And don't even think of untying the rope or getting rid of the rock in any way.  It will bring you bad luck not only for this birth but for the next three births too" the saint said when he turned back.

The villager said nothing. He struggled to reach his home, dragging the stone with force as well as with utmost care. 

The next day when the villager returned he saw the saint in a deep meditative saint. The villager was panting heavily, drenched in sweat. He sat near the tree where the saint was sitting. When the saint opened his eyes, the village was just too eager to ask for the answer to his question. But the saint stopped him and told him to come back again the next morning.

With a heavy heart and a heavier belly, he went back to his home.

The next morning again the villager came back, slowly dragging his stone. He sat next to the saint this time. He tried to look for his answer, but the saint stopped him again and told him to come back again the next morning. 

Being said that the villager was all fierce and uncontrollable. He stood up and started abusing and screaming at the saint.

" Do hell with your answer, you old, grey-hair langoor. Just set me free with this rope and your stupid rock".

The saint smiled and untied the rope, relieving him after so many hours. 

"My brother, you couldn't bear the weight of this rock for mere forty-eight hours. And your Mother didn't complain, rather celebrated your weight around her belly for so many months. She spent so many sleepless nights because you were growing slowly in her belly. The greatness of a Mother and the compromises she made can't be described in mere words my friend. No scripture is capable enough to describe the greatness of a Mother." The saint replied. 

The villager was awestruck with the answer. He fell immediately at the steps of the saint, asking for forgiveness.

When the counselor ma'am ended the story, I can't forget what she said next. 

'To all the boys who are here in the class, one day you will become amazing Fathers. But a Mother's compromises really can't be described in words.'

And the story stayed with me since that day. Unfortunately, Counselor Ma'am left this world on the last day of the year 2022. When I heard that news, more than feeling sad or angry, I felt cheated.

I felt cheated because no one I've ever come across is so humble, so caring, so giving. 

I felt cheated because our younger generation can never listen to those stories, which had the capability to change one's life.

I felt cheated because I will not be able to see that face ever again in whatever days of mortality are still left with me.

I have dealt with physical pains quite gracefully in my life. But emotional pains, I really doubt my capabilities in handling them.

I wanted to share this story with every one of you on the occasion of Mother's Day.

It's hard to send wishes to the divine land where Counselor Ma'am has got a golden desk to stand against and tell wonderful stories. But I'm taught with utmost care to at least try.

Happy Mother's Day Sangeeta Ma'am...




Wednesday, March 17, 2021

Goodbye Junglee...

 It was the month of August and the whole nation was reviving from lockdown. I knew that my lovely, rusty colour, female dog was about to deliver. She was restless for quite a few hours. We tried hard to comfort her. After massaging her forehead for a couple of minutes, she slept a little. 

It was a lazy Sunday and I woke up a bit late. When I went outside, I saw she was waging her tail lovingly and five little puppies clinging to her Bossom. It was hard to categorize them based on their colour. Their eyes were sunk in their sockets and there was still some time in their acquiring of their ability to see the world. I gave the newly became mother some chapati and milk. She let me hold the infants. They were smaller than my palm. I carefully held them closer to my chest and then kept them safely near their mother, one by one.

In a fortnight they opened their eyes and start walking slowly. 

One night when I went to see if they are comfortable, one little pup groaned at me. I smiled at him and picked him up. 

'So you are the aggressive one.' I said to him.



He lovingly wagged his tail, a little afraid of height. 

We started calling him junglee, the wild one. 

Days passed and we become good friends. Junglee was a born warrior. He knew very well how to gather his food, without much dependency on others. He has this habit of sleeping in our home's backyard and used to shout until we open the door and took him inside.

He grew up into a strong, young dog. He was darn active.

At the end of January this year, I smelled something foul from him. I removed his coat to check the problem, I noticed a big eight inches wound with blood all around. I immediately consulted a veterinarian and he told me to clean it and apply an ointment. He healed in no time. 

On the first of March, I had a flight to Bangalore. I was packing my bag a day before when I noticed a dog coughing near the backyard's door. I quickly went to see and it was Junglee who was coughing and panting like anything. I again consulted the veterinarian and he prescribed certain antibiotics. I told my mom to minutely monitor his health in my absence. 

I was two thousand odd kilometres away from my home, but my heart was still here only. I was regularly in contact with my Mom and the majority of the conversation was revolving around Junglee and his siblings. He was no doubt improving, but his recovery was very slow. 

I came back after a week and saw them all happy and excited. But Junglee had lost weight. He was weaker than before. Though he was still very aggressive and energetic, his rib cage was now visible can now clearly felt under his skin. He was having his food properly but still not gaining weight. I monitored his health for some time and felt that there is nothing much to worry about. 

One Friday, I woke up when Junglee was sleeping with his sibling near the washing machine in the backyard. I went to the gym and came back after an hour or so. My Mom was panicking a lot when she said to have look at Junglee

He was standing and there was foam all around his mouth. He was walking backwards when he looked at me. I called the doctor and he told me to bring Junglee to the clinic as soon as possible. 

I carried him to the clinic. While driving, I saw looking at me with all-loving and generous eyes. For the very first time, I saw genuine gratitude in someone's eyes. I patted his head lightly and assured him that he will be alright. 





We got his treatment done and he slept peacefully for the next five or six hours. After then he stood up again, walking backwards, and all that foam around his face. He was shivering too.

I again took him to the clinic. I again saw that gratitude in his eyes. And this time... I cried my heart out. I know what was coming. 

After his treatment, I placed him on his sheet. He was fast asleep. I patted his head and let him sleep.


It was 1.36 AM when I heard something. It was a soft cry, more of a calling. I turned the flashlight of my cellphone on. I saw Junglee taking his last breath. I knew how this end looks like. I folded my hands and prayed to the almighty to make this easier for him.

Exactly at 1.38 AM, I heard all the dogs howled together in a unison, bidding farewell to Junglee. And he took his last breath and left the mortal world.

Junglee was gone. What was lying there is just the body where he was residing. 

I had a very strange dream that night. I saw that Junglee is still alive and all his physical ailments are gone. He became a playful pup once again.

When I woke up, I straight away went to handover his body back to Mother Earth. I informed everything to the vet. He felt sorry for the loss and said that the reason for his death might be Rabies. He advised me to get rabies shots.

I went to the nearby government hospital to get the vaccinations done. 

I was removing my shirt when I saw this little feather stuck to my shirt. I showed it to my Mom and said that Junglee has reached safely to the other world. 


I know if you are thinking that this all is so dramatic and far away from pragmatism. But my dear reader, this is what happened. And this, not the first time this has happened. Feather is a symbol of assurance from the souls who have shed their physical body and crossed the physical borders that they are safe. It's a symbol that the mortals must stop grieving for them now.


But it's difficult. Every time I lose a pup, it breaks my heart. Something inside me also dies whenever I lose a pup.



And this is not the end. I'll keep living for them, looking after them, no matter whatever the circumstances will be.


So this is for Junglee - My aggressive little kid, whose gratitude-filled eyes trapped me forever in them.

HRN

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